The Story I’ll Tell: Navigating Grief with Purpose and Faith

Reflecting on the eve of David’s surgery brings back memories of quiet conversations and unspoken fears. His stirring at 1 a.m. led me to rise and check on him, unknowingly setting the tone for my grief journey. In those still hours of the night, as we grappled with the weight of impending separation and the unknown challenges that lay ahead, little did I know that our conversation would serve as his final instructions for me—a roadmap for navigating life without him by my side.

As David posed the question, “What will you do with your time?” I initially thought he meant during his surgery, but his question and the concern behind it ignited a deeper purpose within me.

When I told him that I would be writing, he stated that I had a story to tell. This response, filled with unwavering support and encouragement, echoed in my heart long after he had passed.

And so, with a heavy yet determined heart, I embarked on a journey to share my story—a story of loss and longing, of grief and gratitude.

Launching “Grieving Will,” a podcast aimed at helping others find purpose amid pain, became my mission. Through storytelling, I found solace in navigating the delicate balance between sorrow and hope, guided by faith and the love of my faithful Father.

Grief led me through a maze of emotions—sadness, anger, guilt, and longing. Yet, in the middle of the chaos, I found comfort in the embrace of loved ones who offered understanding and support. Their presence was a balm to my wounded spirit, a reminder that I was not alone in my pain.

During grief’s unpredictable waves, I found myself standing at the crossroads of sorrow and hope, grappling with moments of both/and. 

Both hurting and healing.

Both mourning and moving forward. 

Both sadness and sacredness. 

Through it all, I clung to the hope that God’s grace would sustain me through the darkest nights and carry me through the storm. His unfailing love became my anchor, grounding me in moments of uncertainty and lifting me up when I felt overwhelmed by my grief.

Launching “Grieving Will” was a therapeutic experience—a way for me to allow God to transform my pain into purpose, and my brokenness into a beacon of hope for others who were walking a similar path. 

I understand that I am not alone in my grief—that countless others are grappling with loss and longing, searching for meaning during their pain. Through the connections forged in shared sorrow, I am finding healing and hope, knowing that I am also part of a community that understands my heartache and holds me up in moments of weakness.

Today, I look back on the last year with both amazement and sorrow.

My journey brought me to this place, I am filled with gratitude for the love and support that carries me through the darkest days. Though the road has been long and the path uncertain, I take comfort in knowing that I am not alone—that God walks beside me, guiding me through the valleys and holding me up every step of the way.