October 3, 2024
I sat down to update one of my websites yesterday, and almost lost my breath. The only content I have added to the website has been blog posts and I updated my photos during the spring.
I clicked on the About page and saw the information about my family had not been changed.
In the virtual space my family looked the same as it did in early 2023, but in real life, nothing about us was the same.
Change has not been easy for me.
Losing David last year, and experiencing the loss of my father this year has been overwhelming, to say the least.
I still carry David’s glasses in my bookbag–in the same pocket I placed them just before he was wheeled out of the room for surgery.
His wedding band remains on my dresser while mine remains on my left hand.
I am still more comfortable sitting in my dad’s chair than any other place in my childhood home–a space that before July 1st was only good enough for him and the grandchildren.
These items are all reminders to me– reminders that my life with David and Daddy was precious.
They are reminders that memories are precious.
They are reminders that life is fleeting and change is inevitable.
I will take the time this weekend to visit one of my favorite coffee shops and make the changes to my website.
I will sip my favorite seasonal coffee and laugh as I think of how David ridiculed me each time he drove me to that coffee shop and made a purchase.
“All of that money for a cup of coffee,” he would state as he handed the barista the money for the purchase.
I will think of my dad’s remarks of how the landscape of our community had changed, “I remember when that side of the road was nothing but fields. It’s hard to believe how much it’s changed.”
I am grateful for the lessons I am learning while navigating life without the first man I ever loved and the man who was the love of my life.
Every day is not easy, but everyday I am reminded that I am not navigating life alone-even when I feel sad, lost, and lonely.
It is my prayer today and in the days to come that the passage of time will never erase the joy of what God has done.
While the world around us may change, our Heavenly Father remains constant .
For that, I am grateful.
Iris
What a beautiful insight on navigating life without our love ones with us.
How kind of God for using those men to love you as they did.
Thanks be to God for His strength and comfort.
Thank you for this reminder about life changing. It reminds me that although the dynamics may change, the memories are so precious. Thank God for memories! Love you shugapie😘!
Well said. I am so thankful that God NEVER changes.
You are so wonderful! Thank you for sharing as you navigate this new way of life. We are blessed to get to take part vicariously. I love you❤️
I must say as usual this is such beautiful writing about Life Changing. Speaking of memories I have some beautiful memories of my sister Glenda She has been gone from me since July 10, 2024 six days before her 68 birthday. I know what it is to miss someone you love so dear. I am always about to call her or about to go see her. Life is steady changing everyday and I miss her so much. She was my friend and sister. We always talked about everything all the time. Thank you for sharing your thoughts it is so encouraging and up lifting to me. Love you and what you are doing to help grieving friends along the way.